Faceless

It all started as a game.

For as long as I can remember, I’ve always been a people-watcher.

As a child, I would watch people for hours before even attempting to talk to them.

I’d scrutinize how you spoke. What you wore. When you laughed. What you liked. Whom you talked to.

I would watch and watch, try to figure out who you were. What you wanted.

And once I put together the pieces of your identity, I would form my own, making sure they clicked.

It was like a puzzle that only I could finish and it amused me to have that sort of power over you: to control exactly what you see.

But under all of that, I’d ensured that I was that girl:

The girl you want to speak to.

The girl you share all your secrets with.

The girl you like.


I flit from one person to the next, as graceful as a butterfly.

Always smiling. Always pleasing.

You come to me when you don’t have anyone else, and it’s my shoulder you cry on, it’s into my ears you whisper your darkest secrets.

I am as smooth as oil, calm as the surface of lifeless water.

I soothe. I comfort. I encourage. I motivate. I charm.

And when I’m finally alone, I laugh.

I laugh at the world, at how gullible you are, to think you know me, to trust me the way you do.

I laugh till I cry and then I cry till I can’t breathe.

The tears never end, it seems, they flow and flow relentlessly, leeching me of everything.

The real joke was on me, all along.

And I’d never realized.


I look in the mirror and don’t recognize the shadow that looks back into my eyes.

I don’t ‘like’ her.

If I was being true to myself, I would say I despise her.

I see myself wrapping my hands around her throat and squeezing until the light slowly fades from her eyes.

And then, I realize the girl is me.

The irony: I’d gained the affection of everyone else, only to realize that I couldn’t win me over too.

Alone, I’m a coward. I’m despicable. Spineless. A doormat. A hypocrite.

I morph myself to suit the people around me. My very identity is built on everyone else’s desires.

I’m no one without someone to please. Nothing without a task to complete.

And there is nothing left of ‘me’ now, of the person I could have been.

Before. Before all the masks.


When I look back, all I see is crushed dreams, and when I look forward, I see an eternity of nothingness.

But it’s what I see when I look within that truly scares me.

Underneath all my masks, I am faceless.


Photo by John Noonan on Unsplash



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380 Comments Add yours

  1. What an amazing title and a beautiful write up.

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    1. Thank you, Pritha.

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  2. Its just beyond any praises!💘
    You capture the subtleties, the thoughts that we usually get in our mind but we ignore them finding them unimportant and you just hold them and arrange them strikingly!
    One more thing, Natalie Swift is your pen name?

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    1. Thank you so much, Bhavya! This means so much to me. ❤
      And yes, Natalie Swift was my pen-name, but I only go by Shreya Vikram today.

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  3. mywritings21 says:

    Thank you so much, Shreya.
    I completely agree with your questions. I think we may also visualize ourselves as nothing but a play of energy. Now that energy is invisible to our naked eyes, it becomes visible only when it (pretends to) assume(s) some kind of form. What form it will assume depends upon different conditions and situations that prevail. And each of these forms is a kind of mask.
    Am I irrelevant?

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    1. No, not at all.
      I love the analogy.
      It makes sense to look at the soul as raw energy, and it’s a comforting thought, to believe that masks aren’t an extension of insecurities, only facets of an intangible whole.

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  4. mywritings21 says:

    Loved reading Faceless. But saddened when you said, “But under all of …ensured…girl you like.”
    It is often so hard to differentiate between the necessity and indecency of wearing a mask. There is hardly anyone who likes when you live faceless (bare) and not wear a mask on. I think it will be difficult to name a person who hasn’t worn any sort of mask ever. Call it an irony of existence or whatever, everything has a mask, a disguise, a pretension at some point, if you agree. Your innocent and a sad tone suggest an attitude society demands; a tension between what you ought to be and what you want, both requiring masks of their own.
    This is what I think, and wanted to share with you. When is your new post coming?

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    1. I agree. And I love what you’ve said here: a tension between what you ought to be and what you want, both requiring masks of their own. It’s ironic that what I am is not relevant at all. It reminds me of something I read today, that in Japanese, there are multiple personal pronouns instead of the single ‘I’ of English, to denote multiple relationships and facets of the personality. Language is always highly suggestive of culture. What if the self is just an accumulation of masks? What if we’re all faceless underneath the masks because a solitary human just might not exist? Every single action we take is always relevant to someone else, whether we know it or not. That being the case, at the end of the day, all we are is the sum of our relationships, and by extension, the sum of all the people we’re known to be, the sum of our masks.
      Thoughts?

      Oh, and my new post is coming up tomorrow, hopefully. My new site, on the other hand, is taking longer than I thought it would, so maybe a month or so.

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  5. Wow. Wow. Wow. The muse was forever with you on this. Truth in this too. What a villain. Yet a face is just another mask one wears for long term. Keep enthralling us.

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    1. Thank you so much. I’m delighted to hear that ❤️

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  6. bukesbunny says:

    You really, do have a great site and an obviously awesome Talent💞 The world can’t hold you anymore sometime to come… Keep it up! I’m intrigued

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    1. Thank you! This means a lot.

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    2. bukesbunny says:

      We help each other grow Don’t we?

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  7. Stuff that matters says:

    This was sooo powerful! Thank you so much for this.

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    1. I’m glad it resonated. Thank you for taking the time to read and comment, Anila. That means a lot ❤

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    1. Thank you for the reblog. It truly means a lot ❤

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  8. illusionaire says:

    So relatable. So beautifully written. Love all your posts. 💕

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    1. Thank you so much. That means a lot ❤

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  9. My favourite so far. I see myself reflected back looking out from my own ivory tower. Writers wear many masks and pose and pout before the mirror of souls. We watch, we look, we write. We are scribes of the ridiculous and markers of make believe. A writer can touch the heart of others and grasp the core of a life yet we struggle to know ourselves. We are faceless so we can wear the faces of others so we may tell their tale. For that is our purpose, to wear the mask of others.

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    1. That was so beautifully said. Thank you for taking the time to read and share such a stunning piece ❤

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  10. KT says:

    So metamorphosis – oh so beautiful – has an evil? No surprise. Lovely writing.

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    1. Thank you. I’m glad you enjoyed it ❤

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  11. “The girl you like.
    I flit from one person to the next, as graceful as a butterfly.” Hmm

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  12. Sanket Rasal says:

    It’s the truth about our very human existence. It’s not just a small part of life, it’s is the entire process of human upbringing. We grow on peoples desire, expectations & social norms; it becomes a mask on each one of us. Mask of fallacy world. And when we peek inside. ‘We’ the unmasked, unconventional and utterly real but empty as nothing. Loved the thought.

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    1. That was so beautifully expressed, Sanket. Thank you so much for taking the time to read and leave such a lovely comment. It means a lot. Hope you have an amazing 2019! ❤

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  13. rebellove says:

    Thanks for sharing your inner thoughts. We all judge, from the must kindest of people to the meanest of people. It doesn’t make you a bad person. Love your self first and that love shall spill over to those around you.

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    1. That’s a beautiful thought. Thank you for taking the time to read and share this here. It really means a lot ❤

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    1. I’m glad you liked it. ❤

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  14. Shiva says:

    Nicely done! 🙂
    This post reminded me of a quote that I had come across some time back and it got stuck in my head since then-

    “But to be liked, you must never disagree. And if you never disagree, it’s like only breathing in and never breathing out! A man can suffocate on courtesy”

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    1. That’s such an intruiging thought. I simply love the analogy. The idea that air itself can kill you seems perfect for this. Thank you so much for taking the time to read and share this here! ❤

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  15. this poem is a mirror, reflecting back, pushing us pass the surface… a truth that should and will convict. This is the type of poetry that won’t be easily forgotten… well articulated, expressed and transparent.

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    1. Thank you so much. I’m so glad you thought so! ❤️

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  16. HealthyVeganLife says:

    This is beautifully written, resonates well with my soul actually. Thanks for sharing.

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  17. This sadly is really true for so many of us… I actually am going through this phase right now.. like.. almost everyone around me.. they claim that I am predictable and categorize me based on the version of me I am around them.. which is irritating but at the same time its not their complete fault either.. I mean is it? 7

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  18. Living Waters Blog says:

    This is so me. I am a people watcher as well. My wife thinks it’s strange and calls me a stocker. I enjoy watching people at the mall. It’s as if I’m trying to learn about them just by watching. Sometimes, I’m right. Sometimes I’m wrong.

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    1. Mmm I can relate. Especially with the creep factor 😉

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  19. Harshad Naik says:

    After reading the whole thing I’m left with only one word “Beautiful”..!! It’s so on point.

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    1. Thank you so much, Harshad! Glad you liked it! ❤️

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  20. We all wear masks, each and every day. And we change them according to the situation in which we are at the particular moment. The more masks we wear, the more we lose ourselves.

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    1. Exactly what I was getting at… thank you so much for taking the time to read and share your thoughts here, Ianus! It means a lot to me ❤

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  21. urmireads says:

    I’m left with no words, Natalie! You’re awesome and so are your works😍😍😍

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    1. Thank you so much. That really means a lot ❤

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  22. malikamai says:

    Wow! That really resonated with me. it was if you were standing directly in the middle of my thoughts. Love it!

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    1. Glad you liked it! Thank you so much for taking the time to read and comment! ❤️

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  23. Dija says:

    Inspiring ❤️

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  24. Ohwomaniya says:

    I like your writing style 🙂

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  25. Anonymous says:

    Beautiful: simply beautiful.

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  26. Emerald says:

    t was like a puzzle that only I could finish and it amused me to have that sort of power over you: to control exactly what you see.

    Yea… Exactly who I am

    Please help read and comment on my posts to know your thought

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  27. Golden Bird says:

    You wrote beautifully

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    1. Thank you so much! ❤

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  28. WB says:

    Wonderful display of self-abuse, and it expressing it. Great writing.

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    1. Thank you so much! Glad you liked it! ❤️

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  29. I really enjoy reading your writings. This was a good mix of naivete & realization of actions.

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    1. That really means a lot. Thank you! ❤

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    2. You’re welcome!! Thank you checking mine. 👈

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  30. That was really awesome. You nailed it !

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    1. Thank you so much, Saksham! Glad you liked it! ❤

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  31. Really touching. It is true we are our worst fears

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    1. Glad you liked it, Nathan! Thank you so much for taking the time to read and comment! ❤

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  32. Karel says:

    I’ve started and given up on writing this very poem so many times. Every single line resonates so much and the writing is excellent as well.

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    1. Glad you liked it, Karel! Thank you so much! ❤

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  33. This was amazing, it brought me back to old memories. I am honoured by your follow. Thank you so much! ❤

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    1. It was my pleasure. Thank you so much for taking the time to read and comment! ❤

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  34. I love your style, and I am quite humbled by your follow … thank you so much!

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    1. It was my pleasure. Thank you so much for taking the time to drop by and comment! It really means a lot ❤

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  35. Shirobanryu says:

    Hi and thanks for this. The Nothingness You perceive. May and Is simply waiting.?. For what Is and All that. Inside. That seems endless. Written within. To be so freely etched. On. Thus Creating… something of No Thing. Simply and so. So Our World Legends. Do say. Light that Fire. Within. Dark or Light. ‘Tis all a Dream… or Nightmare. Of choices. Yours to make.?. Now. Keep the Pen. Handy. Thank You. Also.

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      You’ve put it so beauitfully here… thank you so much for taking the time to read and comment! It really means a lot ❤

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Glad you thought so! Thank you so much for taking the time to read and comment! ❤

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  36. Fred says:

    I was at the opposite extreme in that social spectrum. I was the one who had nobody to talk to and could never figure out why. Social life baffled me. No amount of watching and analysis allowed me to understand what anyone was looking for, let alone trying to be it.

    Either way, you end up at the same place. The past sucked and the future didn’t look so good either. Being yourself is hell when nobody else is interested.

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      I can definitely relate to that… before I figured out how to ‘fit in’, I was in the exact same place. I thought being ‘liked’ was what would finally make me happy, and I was so confused when I found myself sinking even deeper.
      What’s the actual secret to being happy then?

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    2. Natalie Swift says:

      That was really beauitfully put, Fred… thank you so much for sharing!<3

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  37. Shell Vera says:

    I can relate to this in the past. I felt this way for a long time in my younger years. Thanks for sharing this… reminded me to be myself fully and proudly!

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      I’m so glad you liked it! Thank you so much for taking the time to read and share your thoughts here! ❤

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  38. nightbucks says:

    I was totally astounded with this. Such great inspiration for an aspiring writer like me. Keep it up!

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      That really means a lot… thank you so much! ❤

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  39. Isshin Nashi says:

    Exceptionally beautiful.

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much! ❤

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much! That really means a lot<3

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    2. moorezart says:

      Most welcome Natalie!

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  40. Great writing. It brought me back to a repeating dream that I used to have, that I had no face, no mouth to express myself. Nice work!

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Dreams are funny things… insightful in a way you don’t really expect.
      Thank you so much for taking the time to read and share your thoughts! It really means a lot ❤️

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  41. Alixa says:

    Hi Natalie, I like your writings, very peotic, yet insightful. I like this piece especially, it does speak to me a lot – kinda scary! Hope you have a good day 🙂

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much, Alixa! That really means a lot ❤

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  42. agarrabrant says:

    When we look within,
    Do we just regard the void
    Or does it regard us back?

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  43. yuldevvv says:

    wow, you present something that everyone (might have) face about themselves in a very organic and sharp way…. goosebumps!

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Haha thank you so much! ❤

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  44. Gosh! This is so beautiful.

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much! ❤

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  45. Heather says:

    Your writing is incredible. I can’t wait to read the rest of your pieces. So beautiful. Powerful stuff 🦂

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      I’m so glad you liked it, Heather! Thank you so much! ❤

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  46. Oh man, this one cuts deep. I think its part of human nature to have a social identity that changes. Eg. I am different around my family than I am around my friends. And I always know and have a role.

    But when I’m alone, I don’t really have a reason or role. It’s that kind of meaninglessness that can drive someone insane. I’d like to think that I’m not the only one who feels that way haha.

    There’s a reason solitary is a punishment in prison.

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Mmm that’s definitely something I can relate with… strange how we all think we’re the only ones with our masks, when in reality, each and every one of us hide behind our assigned roles.
      It definitely makes for a hilarious image: a room full of masked people running around, exchanging lies, living our little pretences, never suspecting that everyone else’s lives are facades as well.

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    2. That’s a pretty powerful image. Makes you think about how little truly real interaction anyone ever really has with each other

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  47. I relate to this post so much it’s kind of frightening .. great post though

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Haha thank you so much, Shaaer! ❤

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  48. Tandi Tales says:

    It looks like this post has touched a lot of people, and that’s probably because you’ve expressed an easily relatable, universal truth. We’re all projecting caricatures of ourselves in one way or another.
    Thanks for a good read.

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      That’s really an intruiging take on it… thank you so much for taking the time to read and comment! It really means a lot to me ❤

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  49. Your poetry has a lot of strength and resilience, darkness and mystery. It was a pleasure to read it.

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      I’m so glad you liked it! Thank you so much! ❤

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  50. D.Bacchus says:

    This is an incredible piece. It’s surprising how often people can have unique struggles that still resonate with others who have gone through similar pains. I really like the contrast between the two different sizes of text – that separation really helps your narrative lead. I may try that in a couple of my pieces some time!

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      I’m so glad you liked it! Thank you so much for taking the time to read and comment! ❤

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  51. Beautifully written Natalie. Well done. I like how you protrayed the masks as being ways we change ourselves to suit others and build so many than we lose our true selves in the process.

    Amazing work.

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much! Glad you liked it! ❤️

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  52. God… do you get your inspiration here on earth? cos I want to see things the way you do. So true so deep… Faceless is the word to describe imperfections… I need to handle this overwhelming feeling before I lose it…

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  53. Hi, Natalie! Such an honest collection of words. Sometimes, we create so many masks to please people that we forget who we are underneath.

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  54. Jonathan Simeone says:

    I like this post a lot. I think a lot of people are like this; being who they think every other person wants them to be at different times. I love the honesty and the effort to work on what you don’t like. Great job!

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much, Jonathan! Glad you liked it! ❤

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  55. geniecan says:

    May you find the true beauty God made you to be…underneath all the masks xox Happy discoveries! xox Jeane

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  56. Rhodenia says:

    Excellent. It makes a reader feel like seeing her reflection in the mirror. I fell in love with your style.

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much! I’m so glad you liked it! ❤

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  57. This is amazing. I had to read it twice

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  58. Beautifully written…What are we really without our masks…truly? Loved it!

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much, Kalpana! Glad you liked it! ❤

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  59. GuNNhead says:

    I loved how this was poetically written, it connected with me, and beyond that made me visualize it literally at the end. The imagery of removing the face you see in the mirror and seeing a blank is great!

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much! I’m so glad you liked it! ❤

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  60. Anand Bose says:

    I like the way your alter-ego is working through an identity crises. Anand Bose from Kerala

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      That’s an intruiging way to look at it…
      Thank you so much for taking the time to read and share your thoughts here, Anand! It really means a lot ❤

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  61. Mr Nothing says:

    Faceless relentless nothingness.
    Powerful revelation of self.
    Inscribing words.
    Oh how focused I look and don’t see what I should see
    and see only what I want to see when I am good to me

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  62. Missy Leigh says:

    You are seriously talented. On August 18th I created a digital graphic of a girl crying after a mask had been removed from her face… and I was feeling everything you wrote here. How Bazaar. I’m not surprised though. That’s how collective consciousness works. Groups of us process the same issues at the exact same time. How silly we are to assume we’re all alone. I will give you a heads up when I publish that picture. ❤️

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      So true… I’m surprised each time by it, that feeling of seeing your own thoughts written by another hand. An odd sense of deja-vu, really.
      I would love to see it!
      Thank you so much for taking the time to read and share your thoughts here! It really means a lot ❤

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  63. Charmain says:

    Wow ! “The irony: I’d gained the affection of everyone else, only to realize that I couldn’t win me over too.“ sometimes you have to hear someone else’s words to hear your own thoughts.
    Very powerful Natalie – thank you

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      I’m so glad you liked it! Thank you so much for taking the time to read and share your thoughts here! It really means a lot ❤

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  64. Mrs Chetty says:

    Those are deep words. I am also an observer

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  65. Crystal Girl says:

    It truly is a fantastic post. I love it! In a way it is relatable to every person! It’s amazing how you can get caught trying to become what other want you to be that when you finally realise what you have become it’s too late!

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Exactly. Thank you so much, Crystal! It means a lot to me that you think so! ❤

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    2. Crystal Girl says:

      Your welcome and you should be very proud of your posts they are extremely captivating making me want to carry on reading! 💙 Carry on spreading your amazing posts! 🙂

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  66. This post was gloomy but very relatable.. as a person I’m saying if you need help in finding yourself .. do contact. I have been in same situation..molding my self to please the world until I started questioning my existsance ..but I worked on it and now I am my own.. so if you too feel that .. we can help..

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  67. I relate so much to this post – sometimes it’s hard to differentiate between what I need, and what the people around me need. This made me feel better, and more confident, about that.

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      I’m so glad you liked it, Madhavi!
      Mmm exactly.
      Thank you so much for taking the time to read and share your thoughts here! ❤

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  68. nickreeves says:

    Rory G was taking photos of bands & people at the Tyne Festival yesterday. I went outside to say hello & how you doing. I hadn’t seen him out with his camera for some weeks. He’s in love. It’s good to be out, he said. ________ doesn’t finish work for a couple of hours so I’m taking photos. I just don’t get the time otherwise. That’s the pay-off, I said. Sounds like you two have a nice balance though. Don’t let it get too far one way or the other. It’s a highwire act, love. Don’t really know why I said that. I barely know either of them. But he said, yeah, we went to the circus the other night in Gosforth. Have you been? (I hadn’t). _______ said she hates circuses, he said. She only told me afterwards. I didn’t dare tell her that I hated them too! – I thought that was odd, what with him being a photographer & in love & everything! Lovely piece of writing, Natalie. You really capture something sad & instantly recognisable. Thank you.

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  69. Lynn Marie says:

    Incredible writing …. you capture the dark so eloquently.

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much, Lynn! That really means a lot ❤

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  70. Rajat says:

    True…

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  71. It was awesome. Thank you for sharing this.

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Glad you liked it, Janella! Thank you so much! ❤

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  72. So well written. We wear and/or create masks and emotional fences throughout our lives until the point we can’t even recognize the person underneath. Like acting a part on stage that we can never escape from. I guess we think we’ve fooled everyone, but ultimately we only have fooled ourselves. Thank you for sharing.

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Exactly… thank you so much for taking the time to read and share your thoughts here! It really means a lot ❤

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  73. killerbee442 says:

    Inspiring and relatable. Also terrifying.

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  74. This was beautiful and scary at the same time. A true slap in the face…that is neccessary for survival. So…real.

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  75. You’re a gifted writer. I hope you overcome all of life’s struggles.

    Liked by 3 people

    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much! That really means a lot.
      Lots of love! ❤

      Like

  76. Susi Bocks says:

    Hello Natalie! This piece is exquisite! I was hoping to speak to you about a project I’m working on but found no contact page on your blog. Would you reach out to me at mine, so we can chat via email? I’d really appreciate it! Thx 🙂 Susi

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much, Susi! Glad you liked it!
      That’s great! Will do. Love your blog by the way ❤
      As for my contact page, it's right over here… https://thedarkesttunnel.wordpress.com/contact/

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    2. Susi Bocks says:

      Thank you! Glad to be a part of our Mutual Appreciation Society! 😉 I’ll be in touch today.

      Liked by 1 person

    3. Natalie Swift says:

      Haha looking forward to it, Susi! ❤

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  77. Wow is all I can say after reading this . Thought provoking and oh so powerful . Such honesty and pain . This is extraordinary work . Great job . Please keep writing . ♥️

    Liked by 3 people

    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much, Natasha! It really means a lot to me that you thought so. So glad you enjoyed it! ❤

      Liked by 1 person

    2. You are so welcome ! You are another one of the amazing writers that I have had the honor of coming across that has true talent ! The art created by writers like you leaves me speechless ! Thanks for sharing this ! ♥️

      Like

  78. Wow this was very powerful and educating… ❤❤
    You gotta learn to love yourself and please yourself before loving n pleasing those around u…

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much! Glad you enjoyed it ❤

      Like

  79. lunarpoet says:

    It is when we come to terms with the demon inside,
    that we learn how to find our true self. Masks sometimes
    are necessary tools, but that is what they are: tools. They
    don’t define you, they change you, yes. But still, once I read your words,
    I saw the light at the end of the tunnel, and I guess it was you.

    Thank you, this is a great piece.

    Liked by 3 people

    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Haha, that was really beautifully said…
      Thank you so much for taking the time to read and share this here! It really means a lot ❤

      Liked by 1 person

    2. lunarpoet says:

      I really have to thank you. Thanks for reading me. 💚 💙

      Liked by 1 person

  80. xtina says:

    Omg this was absolutely beautiful! You’re an amazing writer and this was so powerful. So honored that someone as talented as you just followed my blog. I just followed you back. Seriously great work!!

    Liked by 3 people

    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much! That means more to me than you could ever imagine ❤

      Liked by 1 person

  81. artsyats says:

    I relate with this post so much, amazing.

    Liked by 3 people

    1. Natalie Swift says:

      I’m so glad you enjoyed it! Thank you so much ❤

      Liked by 1 person

  82. menu makers says:

    very eerie…has this been me!

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  83. My! What a beauty this piece is! It’s well put!!!

    Liked by 3 people

    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much! Glad you liked it ❤

      Liked by 1 person

  84. littleladyanonymous says:

    The way you’ve written 🔥🔥👍so beautiful and relatable.

    Liked by 3 people

    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much! ❤

      Like

  85. twooccasions says:

    Extremely relatable! This was like a walk down memory lane for me. Thanks for putting a penned connection from my past to my present for me to enjoy. I’m glad I found you on my path. You’re writing is brilliant to me.

    Liked by 3 people

    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much! I’m so glad my piece resonated with you! ❤

      Like

  86. Akhiz says:

    Beautifully written 🙂

    Liked by 3 people

    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much, Akhiz! ❤

      Like

  87. idealideas says:

    Powerful content.Really liked it 🙂

    Liked by 3 people

    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much! Glad you enjoyed reading it! ❤

      Liked by 1 person

    2. idealideas says:

      I write similar things at my blog.Please check it out whenever you’re free 🙂

      Liked by 1 person

    3. Natalie Swift says:

      I definitely will ❤

      Liked by 1 person

  88. Well written and widely relatable.

    Liked by 3 people

    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much! ❤

      Like

  89. You truly spoke to me with that text. I was that girl and sometimes I still am and I thank you for putting those thoughts and feelings out. It’s very important to speak about, what drives us mad because it what keeps us sane.
    I send you lots of love!

    Liked by 3 people

    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much, Kurze! I’m so glad my piece resonated with you ❤

      Liked by 1 person

  90. cordelialove says:

    So real, so tangible. Great post!

    Liked by 3 people

    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much! ❤

      Liked by 1 person

  91. sunilmdabral says:

    Pleasure is mine. I would really like to read all that you have written.

    Liked by 2 people

  92. sunilmdabral says:

    I really liked how it shifted from one to other emotions to show the real identity. We are all and simultaneously we are nothing. We know everyone but inside we are struggling to find ourselves.

    What a strong write up.

    Keep it up

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      True and beautifully said…
      Thank you so much for taking the time to read and share your thoughts here! It really means a lot ❤

      Liked by 1 person

  93. Priyanka says:

    Congratulations! You have been nominated for the sunshine blogger award.
    https://wp.me/p9qKGP-3Z

    Liked by 2 people

  94. Shakira's Rihanna says:

    Hey there! You have an amazing way of expressing wonders through beautiful words. You are a great inspiration! I love it! ♥

    Liked by 3 people

    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much! That really means a lot ❤

      Liked by 1 person

    2. Shakira's Rihanna says:

      You are always welcome. I love to read more from You! 🙂

      Liked by 1 person

  95. Ravisingh says:

    You are welcome any time,Natalie!

    Liked by 1 person

  96. Ravisingh says:

    superb post! loved it!

    Liked by 3 people

    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much, Ravisingh! ❤

      Liked by 1 person

  97. mindofcha says:

    It’s in words! This pretty much voiced my feelings word for word. Your writing style is amazing!!!

    Liked by 3 people

    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Haha thank you so much! That really means a lot ❤

      Like

  98. Luna Hope Thomsen says:

    Girl.. i don’t know what to say
    I am speechless

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  99. myhatisbrown says:

    Amazing writing. And scary.
    ‘I’m no one without someone to please. Nothing without a task to complete’ – I’ve always felt that i was fairly independent, but when i read this, the word independent seems quite hollow now – revealed all the masks I actually had on. Your meaningful writing, has helped me think deeper about myself. I’m hooked on to you blog. Thank you

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      I’m so glad my piece resonated with you! Thank you so much for taking the time to read and comment! It really means a lot ❤

      Like

  100. Eliza says:

    This brought me to tears with it’s relatability…
    Thank you for sharing it.

    Liked by 4 people

    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much, Eliza! That really means a lot to me ❤

      Like

  101. Jason Hudson says:

    Nice writing. Easy to read. Gripping. Relatable.

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  102. tabbyrenelle says:

    Hi, maybe you’d be interested to check out Lauren Raine’s masks of the goddess. And read about the making of them and the dancers and the archetypes to find out another reason for your “masks”… and how you can tap into many aspects and energies you do have within you… to empower your creative self? Anyhow… they are so varied and beautiful, I hope you have fun looking at them regardless and see what they draw out in each person, rather than hide.

    https://www.masksofthegoddess.com/workshops.html

    I’m still a new reader of your work, but it’s always interesting when i do! 🙂

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  103. First time visiting, and I already falling in love with your writing. You gain one more follower!

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much, Sofia! That really means a lot ❤

      Like

  104. I understand ‘that game’ when they gave you the reaction you expected. But when they don’t it is slightly annoying and somewhat challenging. I’ve always pride myself in able to look underneath people, figuring out their motive, but sometimes when I meet those with the purest intentions, I more often than not get blind-sided by my own selfish judgements. And yes, below all these masks, when no one is there for me to be someone, I became no one. It is pretty depressing…Thank you for writing it in words, I could never accurately put down.

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      I can definitely relate to everything you’ve said. It’s almost eerie, how accurate it is…
      Thank you so much for taking the time to read and share your thoughts here! It really means a lot ❤

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  105. From one writer to another, that is some really good writing! I wonder if you are an INFJ personality type like me? I can really relate to the people watching thing. God bless you!

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much, Ryan!
      Haha, close but I’m ISTJ 🙂

      Liked by 1 person

    2. Cool, Introverted Sensing. It has been hard being an INFJ male. My introverted intuition makes me real empathetic to the point that I quite literally feel other people deeply (your souls speak to me)…to the point of tears just from seeing hurt on somebody’s face. I don’t just listen to your words. I read your facial expressions, and I feel your soul. I also pick up on bad vibes when danger is around. INFJs are the watchers on the wall. If there is a bad guy about to hurt somebody in a crowd, I will find him. I’ve never been in a mass shooting, but if I am I will be the 6 foot 1 skinny white guy who tackles him to the ground. Am I a bit weird? Yes, yes I am. Hard growing up in America being an emotional guy too. I was always told I was the nice guy and sensitive or too sensitive (hated that one). Doesn’t bother me now at age 40. I’m thankful God made me this way, and we all should be glad for who we are. We all have gifts that work together. I only know one other guy (best bud out in Jersey) who is an INFJ and we are both anomalies in this world. I like your style Natalie Swift, keep rockin’! Blessings!

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    3. Natalie Swift says:

      Haha I can definitely relate to that, though I can’t say I’ve gone through the same things you have. For me, it was more of those weird looks you get when you tell your friends you’d rather sit with a book at home rather than go out with them. Or when you can’t stay in a social situation for more than a few hours at a time. It used to really bother me then, and it still does, just a bit, now, but I’m getting there.

      Thank you so much, Ryan! You too! ❤

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  106. Shanshe says:

    Yes, a very beautiful piece, but yet… something about it shakes me, rattles me at my core even. Maybe because I relate and identify to some degree and then again, maybe because it scares me that I truly don’t know anyone else and maybe, I really am all alone…

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  107. CLMuller says:

    This resonated with me so much. The pace is perfect and the writing is so strong. This is a beautiful piece.

    Liked by 4 people

    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much for the feedback! It really means a lot to me ❤

      Like

  108. This is so relatable. Beautifully written .

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much, Muna! That really means a lot ❤

      Like

    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much! ❤

      Like

  109. Michael33 says:

    … and yet… your writing… perhaps the only part of you unmasked before our eyes… and yet… we like what we see. Masks can never hide the light from one who “sees”…
    Thank you for sharing a part of you with us…
    Hope your day is most beautiful…

    Michael

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much for your kind words, Michael… they really mean a lot to me!
      Lots of love! ❤

      Liked by 1 person

  110. Susi Bocks says:

    Wow! What an intensely honest piece. Thank you for sharing your innermost thoughts. ❤

    Liked by 2 people

    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much for your kind words, Susu! They really mean a lot to me ❤

      Liked by 1 person

    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much, Michael! That really means a lot ❤

      Like

  111. Thanks for such a lovely piece. Natalie…. After reading this I am getting to realise the masks I have put on to please the people around me… We all wear masks at all times and sometimes it is so frequent that we lose our real face in them.. And to note, maybe there maybe one or two human beings who know your real face in spite of the masks you have adorned…

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Mmmm thank you so much! I’m so glad you enjoyed it!
      And yes, maybe… I can only hope ❤

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  112. There is such strength in your words. Please continue to write to find out who you are

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much! That really means a lot ❤

      Liked by 1 person

    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much, Cecil! That really means a lot ❤

      Like

  113. How beautiful and how adorable.

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much, Shantanu! Glad you liked it ❤

      Liked by 1 person

    2. My pleasure always, Natalie

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  114. The reason why I hate this so much is that I can relate. The reason why I love this so much is because I am the same. No matter the order you put it in or how you arrange it we are the ones that comfort the people we know yet we remain the strangers.

    Thank you foe sharing.

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      So true and beautifully said…
      Thank you so much for taking the time to read and share your thoughts here, Gabriel! I’m both glad and saddened that my words could resonate with you ❤

      Liked by 1 person

  115. Dood says:

    Identity crisis, happens to me a lot that I can relate. What you said in the end, that you’re empty? Well for me I guess you can paint your face, to be whatever you want to be. You and your life is like a blank canvas where you can put any type of colour you want.

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      True.
      Thank you so much for taking the time to read and share your thoughts here! It really means a lot ❤

      Liked by 1 person

  116. Gimoozaabi says:

    so relatable the fact that you could put it out , it was so well written. Job well done

    Liked by 4 people

    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much! That really means a lot ❤

      Like

  117. Sweet-Things says:

    Never too late to get rid of her… 😉

    Very powerful, very well understood…

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  118. JimirahLeAnn says:

    I can’t believe how much I can relate to this! One of the hardest battles is having everyone think they know you, when u don’t even know yourself

    Liked by 4 people

    1. Natalie Swift says:

      True…
      I’m so glad my words resonated with you! Thank you so much for taking the time to read and comment! ❤

      Like

  119. Awesome writing Natalie; reblogging to my peeps as I think many can relate to what your saying here. (Including myself) 🙏❤️

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much, David! That really means a lot ❤

      Liked by 2 people

    2. Your welcome Natalie; keep it up, you definitely have a gift. 🙏

      Liked by 1 person

  120. Mohab~Warmwood says:

    Broken human who his passion is to fix another broken human ♥️

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  121. So I have actively decided I am marrying this piece. WOW! This is amazing…probably the most accurate thing I’ve ever read. I’m officially a fan

    Liked by 3 people

    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Haha, thank you so much! That really means a lot ❤

      Like

  122. Micheal Atkinson says:

    Wow your metaphoric symbolism is really gripping as it actually personifies your emotions and makes them understandable and in my case relatable.

    Liked by 5 people

    1. Natalie Swift says:

      I’m glad my piece resonated with you, Micheal… thank you so much for taking the time to read and share your thoughts here! It really means a lot ❤

      Like

  123. The Preacher says:

    Its a deeper truth..wow, you really dug in and projected the invisible. thank you.

    Liked by 5 people

    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Glad you thought so! Thank you so much for your kind words ❤

      Liked by 1 person

  124. I don’t really understand but it’s nice writing. Well done.

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  125. Rosterio Lopes e Fernandes says:

    Daaaaaaaaamn! ❤🔥

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  126. Emphorium says:

    Faceless or fateless? It is in the shallows of life, where feet paddle you can rest and relaxation to be found. Here is where the quiet awareness of purpose comes to us. This is where Self abides. Though the Spirit is faceless too, the the Spirit and the Self have no need for masks. They have nothing to hide. Great piece. With admiration for the work, l send this response. Regards Chris T.

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    1. Took this to a whole new level. Wow:)

      Liked by 4 people

    2. Emphorium says:

      Thanks, your time is precious, thanks for your view. Chris T.

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  127. Something gripped me when I read it.Expressive writing.nice

    Liked by 3 people

    1. Natalie Swift says:

      That really means a lot to me…
      Thank you so much! ❤

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  128. I hear you. Who am I behind all the masks I need to wear everyday. The search never ends.

    Liked by 4 people

    1. Natalie Swift says:

      True…
      Thank you so much for taking the time to read and comment. It really means a lot ❤

      Liked by 1 person

  129. Nigel Hinerman says:

    There are beauty, strength and meaning in simplicity.
    There are a thousand of souls inside of that faceless mind.

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  130. thebookweirdo says:

    This is beautiful.

    Liked by 4 people

    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much! ❤

      Liked by 1 person

  131. Wow, that was great! I really enjoyed it thank you for sharing your talent.

    Liked by 3 people

    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Glad you enjoyed it, Michael! Thank you so much for taking the time to read and comment ❤

      Like

  132. amwordism says:

    Woah. I’ve never seen this put so accurately into words before. I relate deeply with this and I love that you’ve captured every side of this feeling. It’s so powerful, thank you!!

    Liked by 3 people

    1. Natalie Swift says:

      That really means a lot to me… thank you so much for taking the time to read and comment! ❤

      Like

    2. amwordism says:

      It was my pleasure! Thank you for another lovely piece! Xx

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  133. organicschat says:

    Your honesty is profoundly moving and so human… thank you for showing us who we are by exposing what you find behind the mask…

    As my way of letting you know I appreciate you and your posts, I have nominated you for the Mystery Blogger Award. I hope you know there is no obligation to participate, but I do want to highlight this fact here.
    It is of course all voluntary.

    Sending you many good wishes and blessings!
    Michèle 🌸

    Here is the link with all the details: https://michelesorganics.wordpress.com/2018/08/05/mystery-blogger-award-2/

    Liked by 3 people

    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much for your kind words and the nomination, Michele… it means more to me than you could ever imagine.
      I’m honoured you think I’m worthy of this and I really appreciate the gesture.

      However, I don’t know if I’d be able to participate at the moment, and I’m really sorry about that.

      Thank you so much, again ❤

      Lots of love,
      Natalie

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    2. organicschat says:

      I totally understand! It is time consuming I know. There is also no time pressure so at any time is you feel up to it or want to shout to the world how appreciated you are, you can choose to participate then. Much love and light to you. Keep being the beautiful person you are. 💖xo

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  134. Lovely…haunting…and darkly moving…and unfortunately all so true for most of us. Well done.

    Liked by 4 people

    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much! That really means a lot ❤

      Like

  135. A timely post that hits close to home for me. Well done. Thank you for sharing!

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      I’m so glad my piece resonated with you, Derek! Thank you so much for taking the time to read and share your thoughts here ❤

      Liked by 1 person

  136. SunFreeStar says:

    Such a beautifully written post, highlighting the most important path we all have to go through in life, the shading of our multiple masks that we have had to create as a form of protection and self-defense while growing up, to then become aware and love who we really are.

    Liked by 4 people

    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much! That really means a lot ❤

      Liked by 1 person

  137. Rhyming Wolf says:

    You’re a someone, with a beautiful face. You’re the one, the universe chose to represent its beauty from within and without. Your eyes sparkle with the love you yearn for and are ready to give to those you see in need. Your nose breathes in the very essence of this world and gives out joy and happiness unto others. Your ears listen to the sorrows and joys of others and are salvation for their uncontrolled emotions. Your lips are the angel’s kiss for those near, dear and in need of help around you. Your cheeks are like the mount of Venus, where Goddess Venus herself endowed you with beauty and grace.
    You, my amazing friend, are the one. The one who was chosen by the universe. For a goal, a mission, that far transcends the mediocrity of mundaneness. You are the beauty that needs no mask, needs no competition. You are you, hun.
    You are Natalie. And you have the most beautiful face.

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Wow, honestly I have no idea what to say.

      That was beautifully written, for one.
      So beautifully written that I’m starting to think you’re trying to steal my thunder on my blog 😉
      (I see what you’re doing there)

      I’ll allow it though, because it so happens that I’m in severe need of an ego boost at the moment and I’ll take what I can get.

      So keep up the good work: no matter what they say, flattery will get you everywhere ❤

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    2. Rhyming Wolf says:

      Oh that ain’t my intention at all girl😄
      Well the only thing I can boost is confidence, ego ain’t one of em hon😉
      Be confident in yourself girl, you’re precious and an amazing person truly. Your words in this post itself your beauty. How?
      The beauty of description of the topic itself.
      The beauty in the way you write.
      The beauty in the way you express.
      And to describe, write and express one needs to be beautiful. And what’s beautiful, always has a face.

      You girl, have a beautiful one. And always will.😁

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  138. danica says:

    I have been struggling to put this into words for quite some time. The people watching, the speedy metamorphous, the laughing, the echoing emptiness. Thank you

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  139. calistori says:

    How have I only just found your blog? Your writing is absolutely stunning. Love it!! Xx

    Liked by 4 people

    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Haha thank you so much! That really means a lot to me ❤

      Liked by 1 person

  140. swankyarians says:

    Your writing is amazing…. very well expressed

    Liked by 4 people

    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much! That really means a lot ❤

      Liked by 1 person

  141. tara caribou says:

    I identify with this. Thanks for sharing.

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  142. Wow this is awesome! Just WOW!

    Liked by 5 people

    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much! ❤

      Like

  143. Emotional and relatable piece…. Great writing

    Liked by 6 people

    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much! ❤

      Like

  144. Bill E says:

    Beautiful. Powerful. Treacherous. Dark. You went there, that place that I fear and only find in seclusion. Pushing boundaries to be enlightened, this is a really great work Natalie. Thanks!

    Liked by 4 people

    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much, Bill! That really means a lot to me ❤

      Like

  145. Anthony says:

    It’s interesting that someone could become someone else to land someone. I would assume that it would grow tiresome and then escape would need to be facilitated. I suppose that escape would probably end up being more dramatic and painful that was necessary.
    I don’t believe anyone has ever changed who they are for me (but I might have been blind to it) but I know I have done it myself. I told myself that it was growth, but lately, I have been questioning that.

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  146. mchotstuff says:

    I tend to be a lazy reader. Something has to captivate me from the start to pull me in and keep me until the end. I don’t like that about myself because I expect other people to read my stuff yet I can’t get myself to read others’. I’m hoping it’s more a level of ADHD rather than me being an asshat.
    And here I am, reading your whole post. Yes it’s not intensely long, it sure didn’t feel that way. And it might seem silly to mention it as if that was MY huge accomplishment.
    Because it’s not. It’s YOUR accomplishment.
    So congratulations for keeping me reading, and thank you for that as well.

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Haha, no worries, I’m sure majority of readers today feel the same… I know I do 😉
      I’m honoured that you enjoyed reading my post and it really means a lot to me that you took the time to share this here. Thank you so much for that! ❤

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  147. Bobby Blade says:

    Wow! Simply a wonderful piece of writing! Bravo! Very well written! Loved it!

    Liked by 5 people

    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much! That really means a lot ❤

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  148. This bears much semblence to my own thoughts. I can feel my poem ‘masks’ being untangled into prose in your words. Beautiful work Natalie ❤

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much, Sahana! That really means a lot to me ❤

      Liked by 1 person

  149. This is such a strong piece…
    But have you considered this, that underneath all your masks, you are not faceless, but your true face is hidden from even you yet, for a deeper search? Afterall, aren’t diamonds and gold found only deep beneath the plain ground?

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  150. Exactly how I feel. Never knew it could be put into words so elegantly. Damn cool!

    Liked by 5 people

    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much! Glad you enjoyed reading it ❤

      Like

  151. Anusha says:

    This is the most beautiful thing I read today

    Liked by 6 people

    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much, Anusha! ❤

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  152. Winqen says:

    Amazing! Good way to depict the way we interact with others and somehow adapt to what they want or need. It becomes hard when we do not recognize ourselves anymore because we always want to please people

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    1. Winqen says:

      Although we should not stop being ourselves, respecting and loving ourselves 😀

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    2. The way I look at it,
      beneath these masks, we’re all the same-
      yet another veil- colors on plain canvas.
      Still, we don’t realise that deepest beyond , is only the flame-
      of same hope and happiness as bright as once was.
      (This is from one of my old poems XD)

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    3. Natalie Swift says:

      Beautifully written, Sahana…
      I absolutely loved this piece ❤

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    4. Thank you… the rest is on my blog, if by chance you wanted to check it out.
      (Warning, the post requires quite a lot of scrolling down ;P)

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    5. Natalie Swift says:

      Haha I definitely will, thanks ❤

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    6. Natalie Swift says:

      Exactly…
      Thank you so much for taking the time to read and share your thoughts here! ❤

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  153. kstites says:

    Simply beautiful. This inspires reflection and realization to the many masks each of us wears in any given scenario. Thank you for sharing your beautiful work.

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    1. true isn’t it? you’ve knit the crux of the post in a sentence.

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    2. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much for your kind words! They really mean a lot to me ❤

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  154. theenchantedlabyrinth says:

    I think stripping off the bullshit and seeing what you are underneath is a good start. You obviously have a lot of work left to do because you don’t like you and don’t even know what the real you is. Once you stop and just go within that darkness you will figure it out. The post makes me think of Darth Vader. I don’t know why but with the mask and the voice everyone thought he was a badass but when that is stripped it was like, “Damn what is that shit underneath.” Look at the ugly and make peace with it and that is how you heal.

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      True…
      Haha, when you think about it, that’s such an oddly accurate comparison!
      Thank you so much for taking the time to read and share your thoughts here! It really means a lot to me ❤

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  155. Branded says:

    I think you’re not alone. I knew someone like you. But I somehow sensed the game. It was a feeling, I guess. The angles didn’t quite meet. Not knowing what happened to those you left behind, for myself, I work on not closing those doors. People make mistakes. I also try not to say “they are what they are” because I believe we can all be fluid in personal development. “I was a different person,” it’s true! “I hope I don’t screw up again.” But I will. How will I fix it next time? Will I survive?

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Mmm, what an empowering thought…
      Thank you so much for taking the time to read and share this here! It really means a lot. ❤

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  156. Went through my own peeling back the layers moment many

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    1. Sorry, stupid phone lol. Like I was saying, I went through my own peeling back moment many years back. I can tell you once the depression was over I had peeled back so many layers, just like an onion, that when I got to the raw Identity beneath I didn’t know what to do. I did know one thing though, I was free. Kind of like that moment when the Mariner has the albatross drop from his neck kind of freedom. I truly like myself now and couldn’t be happier.

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    2. Natalie Swift says:

      Haha, no problem.
      Mmm still waiting for the happiness part here, I guess. 😉
      I get what you’re saying though, and I really hope I’ll be able to say that one day as well.
      Thank you so much for taking the time to read and share your thoughts here, Aaron! It really means a lot to me ❤

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    3. You are free, for you no more carry upon your back the burden of all those hefty layres 🙂

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  157. I’d never thought of myself this way but now that my eyes are opened I can see the truth in what you write, which, by the way, is very well done. In my life I have unmasked twice; once in my early teens when I ceased to be the obedient miss who did everything as instructed; and once after I was married when I woke up one morning to the thought that if I went on the way that I was going to never do anything that I truly wanted to do. Fortunately my husband liked the new assertive me. It may be time for another unmasking but I’ll have to stare in that mirror and think long and hard, Thank you for this provocative post.

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      I can definitely relate to that…
      I went through that moment myself during my mid-teens and it was a complete 180-degree change there… unfortunately, my parents weren’t as supportive of the independent me 😦
      Thank you so much for taking the time to read and share your story here, Jan! It really means a lot to me ❤

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  158. meloheart says:

    Such a strong write up

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much! That really means a lot ❤

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    2. meloheart says:

      I just said the truth ..It’s a wonderful composition

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  159. Deky says:

    Inspiring and interesting. Good job. I really like the honesty behind it.

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much, Deky! That really means a lot ❤

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  160. Draven Reign says:

    Such a beautiful portrayal of our masked self.

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much! ❤

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  161. So beautiful, honest and moving. Thank you for sharing.

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  162. Lalitha says:

    This was a difficult read because somewhere underneath your words,buried were my own masks. I guess everyone puts on masks. I put mine to protect myself from the searing scrutiny of the world staring at me and judging me all the time. But I know who I really am..so I guess I’m okay. For now. But there is always that fear lurking within me that I could get lost among the masks I carry inside me. Powerful post Natalie! An eye opener if I may add.

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Mmm I know exactly what you mean.
      Thank you so much for taking the time to read and share your thought here, Lalitha! It really means a lot ❤

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    2. I understand you completely, although, if you think about it for a moment Lalitha, you could never truly get lost among your masks. It is only your real eyes that you can see with, for masks don’t have eyes. So, the moment you realize what in you sees the world, you know what your true face is…
      I am not sure I’ve expressed my thought quite clearly, but ya…

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  163. Jon says:

    The hardest thing to do is to look in a mirror and be completely 100% honest with ourselves. As my dad once said to me “the only person you are fooling is yourself”, and he was right.
    I’ve spent the last few years digging into my dark places to remove those masks (or ego’s) that I don’t like or don’t serve me anymore. And some of it has been damn hard. But I’m getting there and this journey continues.
    Thanks for your honesty in writing this post. it made me stop and question myself again. Back to the mirror….

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      I know exactly what you mean. Throwing away an entire identity you’ve created and used for so long is definitely not easy.
      I hope one day, I’ll find the strength to give up those personas that don’t fit me as well.
      Thank you so much for taking the time to read and share your thoughts here, Jon! It really means a lot ❤

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  164. steventbooks says:

    Thank you for sharing this. It is the hardest thing in the world to be true and vulnerable AND likable. Being analytical, using people, probably being a “sociopath,” are harmful to those around us but we have to trudge on and accept all faults without letting them crush us. I empathize, well said.

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      True and beautifully said…
      Thank you so much for taking the time to read and share your thoughts here, Steven! It really means a lot to me ❤

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  165. Huub Koch says:

    Compelling! and… Poignant and evocative; difficult to ignore or forget.

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much! That really means a lot ❤

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  166. Rakkelle says:

    Wow!!!! So well written.

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much, Rakkelle! ❤

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  167. We all wear those masks, starting when we were, too young to recall, and, they were, for survival’s sakes (or at least, for me they were!), and, eventually, those masks, they became attached to my skin, and, it took me a long, long, long time, to finally, peel off each and every layer I’d, covered up my real self with…

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    1. So true and beautifully expressed…
      Thank you so much for taking the time to read and comment! It really means a lot to me ❤

      Like

  168. Dian Y. says:

    sometimes i feel this way, i love your writing. so beautiful!

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    1. Thank you so much, Dian! That really means a lot to me ❤

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  169. 🦋 Beautiful Natalie.

    oh and I like people watching too. The airport is a great place to just watch.

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    1. Haha true.
      Thank you so much! That really means a lot ❤

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    2. 🦋 Some blogs are worth following and your I reckon yours is great. I blog mostly for relaxation. It’s a hobby mostly. Hubby often works out of town. Kids grown, married and grandkids are mostly at school. 🙂 Hope you don’t mind a grandma following your blog.

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    3. Haha, I’d honestly like to be able to say that when I’m at that stage of my life… sounds peaceful. 🙂

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  170. “I’m no one without someone to please.“

    Such a powerful moving read.

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    1. Thank you so much! That really means a lot ❤

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  171. hellolauren528 says:

    I feel this way all the time, like no one really knows who I am. Thanks for sharing.

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    1. Thank you so much for taking the time to read and comment, Lauren… it really means a lot ❤

      Like

    2. hellolauren528 says:

      You’re welcome!

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  172. Alys says:

    This is powerful and relatable. Your writing is so beautiful!

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    1. Natalie Swift says:

      Thank you so much, Alys! That really means a lot ❤

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    1. Thank you so much! That really means a lot to me ❤

      Like

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