You close your eyes…

When you close your eyes, your world is not void.

It is in flashes of red, of gold, of scandalously bright pinks, flickering like stars on the backdrop of a bruised black.

You can stand in the budding light of a winter dawn, the chilly morning breeze whipping around you, and shades of pastel pinks and oranges bloom into being.

In the punishing glare of a mid-day sun, your world is a flaring red: it soaks you in delicious warmth, drowning you in an ocean of scarlet.

When the night shifts from dusk to twilight, the wilting glare of the fading sun shines a queer royal blue, embroidered with strands of sea-silver.

When you close your eyes, your world is magic.

The world outside is harsh, full of dull greys and insipid whites. But it doesn’t have to be so. The world beneath your eyelids is beautiful, and it’s yours.

So you don’t doubt, you don’t question.

You believe. Ignorance is key.

This place you see, of laughter and joy, of everlasting beauty and frivolous magic, is real. It has to be.

Because when you can’t trust yourself, what is there to live for?

You turn a blind eye, let yourself get caught up in the charade you create.

The truth is right before you, they say, but they’ll never understand.

You do not want to see. You do not want to know. You don’t ask. You don’t doubt.

You close your eyes, and believe.



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111 thoughts on “You close your eyes…

    1. Exactly what I was thinking when I wrote it. How far does that line stretch? Till when can you justify your actions with belief without getting caught up in a fantasy?
      I guess you’ll never know…

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  1. The visions you evoke here are astoundingly beautiful. Your word choice is on point. On top of that, the themes of belief in a certain sort of magic and of devotion to a personal ideal of beauty despite others’ demands that you face the cold ugliness of reality are stated quite eloquently. Your writing is a blessing to the internet.

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  2. Talk about timing! Last night a friend I correspond with asked me the question “What Do You See When You Close Your Eyes”. I thought a bit and other than visual imagery of wild flowers and ebb and flow of tides had no other answer. I so loved your description of what happens when the lights go out. Beautiful!! 🙂

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  3. So true – that is why prayer and or meditation is so powerful. We ask the Holy Spirit of creativity to come into our fingers on a keyboard or on a blank page and connect to something outside of our closed eyes.

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  4. Wow , Natalie,

    It’s what the emotions see when our eyes can’t.


    On Sun, Oct 21, 2018 at 4:34 AM The Midnight Ember wrote:

    > Natalie Swift posted: “When you close your eyes, your world is not black. > It is in flashes of red, of gold, of scandalously bright pinks, flickering > like stars on the backdrop of a bruised black. You can stand in the budding > light of a winter dawn, the chilly morning breeze w” >

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    1. I love The Smiths. And this instantly reminded me of the prototypical Smiths song, The music and The Voice so beautiful man I feel like — killing the DJ?

      Fuck yeah!

      I have a mind I had to learn to control before seven years of feeling only pain killed me. As I read this I let it beome a huge mural taking up a wall. You’re a wonderful painter.

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    2. Well, I’ve never listened to the Smiths but maybe I’ll give them a try after this… I’m so glad you liked this piece! Thank you so much for taking the time to read and comment! It really means a lot ❤


  5. Hello 🙂

    This is my first read of your blog, and I loved it. I liked the very idea of your toying around with words with rhythms. There is poetic style infused with pleasing metaphors in your craft, which captures the essence of emotions 👌

    To add to that, your bio really impressed me 🙂

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  6. Oh, my word. A masterful piece of prose and I am in awe of your words. You weave words together in a manner that is careful and delicate and meaningful all at once. Your diction is strong, yet simple. Imagery is powerful, yet full of so much emotion. I feel bewitched right now.

    “When you close your eyes, your world is magic.”
    I loved this line. You had so many powerful little nuggets embedded in your piece I feel remiss choosing only one. But this one spoke to my soul first.

    You have a lot of talent. I feel like I need to wrap up my gushing lol. Thank you so much for sharing!! ❤️ ~Kelsey

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  7. Sorry to hear your twitter account was suspended. I could not imagine why, but I hope you keep writing and never give up on the dreams revealed to you when you close your eyes.
    This was an amazing piece of prose and I would love to know the motivation behind this one.

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    1. That really means a lot to me. However, I’m afraid my Twitter account has not been suspended, as far as I know, though I rarely have any use for it. You can find me at:

      I’m so glad you liked this piece! Thank you for taking the time to read and comment. ❤
      As for motivation, I find that I can't pinpoint exactly where I get my ideas: it's more of a single afflatus, a flash of thought, disappearing as quickly as it arrives if I fail to capture it on paper. On reflection, I guess it started with the realization that the colours you see with open eyes are never the same as the ones you see when they are closed. That, merging with the idea that sometimes, you simply prefer to lie to yourself, to close your eyes and pretend the world is radiant, was probably where this piece emerged from.

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    2. That is a daily struggle with me and my associates. A lot of them love to say that because I send so much time separating the truths from the lie of the diction of others, I am cold and crass and believe the world to be less than what it could be. That I diminish the radiance from life with my constant need to show the world as it really, an experiment with flaws. A lot of them don’t want to believe in the flaws that are manifested to me. Continuing to travel down the same paths that have gotten them no where in the past ten years. I am made to ask myself how can people be ok with going nowhere for ten years. Then I saw your post and thought, “Right up my ally.” I tried to add your blog to my twitter account and there was some mention of an account offline or not working. I knew they were not talking about me because I was just on it, so I thought they were suggesting yours. Now I am not sure what that was all about. I still want to share this post with my friends and associates. Just to add fuel to my fire and maybe get some people to read more your works.

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