There are moments when you yearn to be just one amid many.
You pine for the blur of faces whooshing around you, the accidental brush of a hand on yours. To breathe in the air that has been cast-off by the surrounding throng; the intimacy, you crave it.
There is comfort to be taken in isolation, yes, but the loss of individuality holds a certain charm as well.
You want to forget- just for a while- to simply live and breathe, to step out and endure.
And so, you stand here pulsing in the heart of this crowd, and tell yourself that your bubble does not exist.
It is a relief then, this lie.
To let yourself be swept away by the ocean, by the mass of obscure grey shapes, your only duty to contribute to the beauty of the ensemble.
Within this crowd, you can tell yourself: perhaps for all your worries about a distinctive existence, you are nothing more than a single artery of a heart, pumping and throbbing on impulses from your milieu.
Here, your own decisions will reflect off the millions of facets of this glass sphere. Your behaviour can be formulaic, without blame and without pressure.
Here, you are merely a fish among a shoal, and the ocean does not move merely because your fins have grazed it.
Trapped within the jostle of elbows and shoulders, you are truly free.
Within this crowd, you are no one, and your insignificance has never been sweeter.
Hat Tip to Mike from From the Front Porch for his input on the piece
PS In May 2019, I will be moving to a new web address. I’m shifting to a personal domain and I’m so, so excited for you to see it! Buying my domain is giving me so much more freedom for new features, design, and I can’t wait for you to get started there.
But on the downside, all those of you who’ve subscribed to my blog here WILL NOT be notified of new posts anymore. I’d hate for you to miss out just because I’ve shifted addresses, but WordPress doesn’t offer anything to straighten this out.
So to make sure the change is as smooth as possible, I’d be so grateful if you’d enter your email ID below so we can stay in touch. You can opt-out any time, no hard feelings. I hate spam and I’ll only be reaching out every two weeks or so for blog updates, I promise.
Thank you so much for all your support. ❤