Cynosure

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December 31.

The clock chimes twelve against the backdrop of bated breath.

Silence, overwhelming in its vacancy.

Deafening, in a way that you hear only the sounds of what ‘should be’, the pounding music that never reaches your ears, the raucous shouts that never leave their lips.

Heavy breath marking the seconds in thick, syrupy drops.

There is fear, this inexplicable terror, that flutters away too quickly for you to understand it.

If you were fast enough, you would know that it is a fear of disappointment, like that moment just before you blow out the candles on a birthday cake, or wish on an eyelash.

That fear of realizing, that there is no magic in the passing of time; only cold, stark gravity.

But you do not think of any of this, because the fear passes too quickly for thought.

Or perhaps because you do not want to.


An infinite second lies suspended while the old year passes into oblivion, sweeping into that space where all worn time goes.

This moment, it is the signal for the collective forgetting of past transgressions; a sweeping, desolate canvas, in equal parts exhilarating and terrifying.

You sit by the tomb of dead time and weave your next identity, one thread looping into another.

You shatter the mask that has served you well for the past year, this mask that has felt the coolness of your tears, and the warmth of your laughter, this mask that you have both hated and loved, with equal ferocity.

A tender caress and it implodes within itself. The pieces fall like glass petals.

A time for both celebration and mourning, of the dreams you have lived, and those futures not realized; of the masks of the past, and the veil of the future; of the passing of yesterday, and the inevitability of tomorrow.

The moment is gone as quickly as it came, and that is it.

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  1. librepaley8 says:

    Beautifully atmospheric, wishing you the magic of the season.

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  2. hickoryhollerarts says:

    Reading this felt like experiencing a brook running gently over a stone, smoothing it, carving it into something yet to be fully known but nonetheless shaping it into a unique object. Wonderful writing.

    Liked by 12 people

    1. That was so beautifully expressed… thank you so much for taking the time to read and comment! I’m glad you enjoyed it ❤

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  3. leelah saachi says:

    profoundly real

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  4. Always enjoy reading your atmospheric posts…this one in particular was very profound/intuitive.

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    1. Thank you so much! That really means a lot ❤

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  5. I really love this. It’s Beautiful.

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  6. I liked this – gave me the creepy crawly feeling that I can’t get any further from death than I was just a moment ago.

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    1. That’s such a unique take on it… looking back at the piece, it does eerily resemble something like that. Thank you so much for taking the time to read and share your thoughts here! It really means a lot ❤

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  7. Lady, you have a God-given talent. If you have a book out, please let me know. If you don’t, you should consider it. Thank you for sharing.

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    1. Thank you so much. I’m afraid I don’t have a book out at the moment. though it truly means a lot to me that you think I’m capable of it. You just made my day ❤

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  8. Autho R. says:

    Hi! I loved the last line. Thank you so much for writing and writing and publishing and publishing. You are an inspiration 🙂 Made my day, as always

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    1. Thank you so much for that. It truly means a lot to me ❤

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  9. Hiba's blogs says:

    Hey dear!! I have nominated you for the Sunshine Blogger Award.Check it out https://hibasyedblog.wordpress.com/2018/12/25/sunshine-blogger-award/

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    1. Thank you so much for the nomination. It truly means a lot. As I’m trying to keep the page an award free zone, I’m afraid I won’t be able to put up the post to accept it. I appreciate the gesture though. Thank you, again, and congrats on your nomination! ❤

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    2. Hiba's blogs says:

      You are always welcome nice lady ❤

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  10. moonchild says:

    I just loved this. Was very thoughtful, and I wanted to embrace every minute of life because you never know what’s going to happen ❤️

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    1. True. Thank you so much for taking the time to read and comment! It really means a lot ❤

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  11. Shell Of A Girl says:

    Just want to thank you for reading my posts and say your blog is amazing you are such a good writer and really drag me into your thoughtspace! Keep it up 😀 x

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    1. Thank you so much! That really means a lot. Hope you have an amazing 2019! ❤️

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    2. Shell Of A Girl says:

      You too! 💕

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  12. josafarblog says:

    You’re my go to blogger!

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    1. Haha, thank you so much, And hope you have an incredible 2019! ❤

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    2. josafarblog says:

      You too, mi casa es tu casa.

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  13. babswrites says:

    This is incredible! Love the language!

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    1. Thank you! Glad you liked it! ❤

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  14. jacklantic says:

    I sometimes postpone starting to read your pieces (after receiving an email notifying me that another has made its way into existence), because I know I will need a fair few focused minutes to fully indulge in the fudgy fidelity of the story, the imagery, the broad originality; that is, there is nothing left to cliche or trodden paths, and so it feels like a ship’s hull beaching a new land, and I need to set up camp for a time, to ensure my map accurately depicts its thick discovery.

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    1. I see what you did there. Very clever 😉

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  15. apoorvarai95 says:

    Beautiful, simply beautiful.

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    1. Thank you! Hope you have an amazing 2019. ❤

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    2. apoorvarai95 says:

      I hope the same same for u as well:) All the best for your future endeavours.

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  16. shellyfaber says:

    Beautiful. So lovely to read, and, share with you. Thank you so much for reading. I wish you much Magic, in 2019!

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    1. Thank you! That really means a lot to me. Hope you have an incredible 2019 as well! ❤

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  17. This beauty brought some calmer water to my raging seas, of late indicative of my tumultuous heart and mind. I thank you for your words. You have such a sun-kissed gift, it penetrated my darkness. ☀ 🎈

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    1. I’m glad you enjoyed it, Steve. Hope you have a brighter 2019! ❤

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    2. So do I. Thank you 🎈

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  18. thebengali says:

    It takes great command over a language to turn a good phrase (the tomb of dead time);
    It takes considerable experience to be profound (the feeling that for now… anything is possible);
    But it takes genius to place morbidity and hope in the same work and communicate, effectively, the sorrow of living and the beauty of death – and that is Cynosure in its entirety. Brilliant.

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    1. Thank you. That means more to me than I could ever express. Hope you have an incredible 2019 ❤

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    2. thebengali says:

      Thank you. I too wish that you have an incredible 2019, with enough of all that you need.

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  19. Too many of those packed together are gooey. Salted on from time to time is good writing.

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  20. Harsh R. says:

    Wonderful! Loved every bit of it. I am so glad that I read this. Wish if you could take some time and read some of my content and help review it.

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    1. Glad you liked it, Harsh!
      It’d be my pleasure. Hope you have an amazing 2019! ❤

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  21. Branded says:

    Wonderful! A mix of feelings. Don’t let me return to the mundane! 😀 Here are some thoughts opened to me after reading. I often wish we never invented time. The river is continuous. It’s humanity that add locks and dams, interrupting flow, constraining constant change. As I read you, I can’t decide if I’m a negative or a positive person. It seems that way for me, as is one of my struggles. I’m not sure how the world stands with me. I’m not certain I’ll ever know. But letting go and finding the natural currents of motion and change might be a good start. One thing I do know is that we don’t take good care of each other, in the world. My best to you!

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    1. I like that idea: finding the natural currents of motion and change. It paints a very soothing picture.
      I hope 2019 will bring a different world to light, though change is never that abrupt. Each year does bring new hope though, and that’s the only thing we can clutch onto.
      So, I wish you a year filled with hope, and perhaps a discovery of what it feels like to ride the natural current of motion. ❤

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    2. Branded says:

      I hope you find the magic!

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  22. I really like your post. You have a good, diferent and nice knowledge. Congratulations!!

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  23. gpavants says:

    Hi Natalie,

    Great imagery. Yes, letting the past with all of its mistakes, illusions, and closed doors is a reliqushing for something better. New Year is a mindset that maybe we should start each day with.

    Gary

    On Tue, Dec 25, 2018 at 1:34 AM The Midnight Ember wrote:

    > Natalie Swift posted: ” December 31. The clock chimes twelve against the > backdrop of bated breath. Silence, overwhelming in its vacancy. Deafening, > in a way that you hear only the sounds of what ‘should be’, the pounding > music that never reaches your ears, the raucous” >

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    1. I love that idea… wouldn’t we all be so much happier if we woke up with the same clean slate we gift ourselves at the beginning of every year? I guess it’s much harder to put in practise than simply say it.

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  24. Brilliant post 🙂 Happy new year dear!

    Do check my blogs https://mesmotsbysazz.com/ and share your feedback!

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    1. Thank you so much! Back at you.
      It would be my pleasure. ❤

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  25. Wishing you all the joy and magic life can bring for the New Year and all the years to follow. Anne always

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    1. Thank you so much, Anne! Back at you. ❤

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  26. This is so good. It’s amazing how you have observed that indescribable moment and yet have discribed it.

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    1. Thank you so much! Glad you liked it!<3

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  27. gauriwalecha says:

    Hi shreya!
    Loved your content. You weave magic through your words.

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    1. Thank you so much! Glad you liked it!<3

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  28. Happy New Year. Yes, “Amidst the cheer and laughter, you are disappointed, though you try not to acknowledge it, as if you can somehow ignore the feeling into excitement.”
    We are captive to time. It passes. Man’s life is 70 years, possibly 80 if strength and providence wills it. The clock is ticking and eternity beckons us. Have we made peace with our Creator? An accumulation of debts, sins over the years conscience can not deny. How to come to terms with reality. Life is a gift of God, too often squandered as I had done for 33 years, experimenting, but one season, brought change. He who saves souls wooed me out of my descent into increasing depravity. Plucked me out of the miry swamp and set me on the Stone. He’s alive, He arose and conquered death. He opened His hand and I came to His table. There I found forgiveness and over the years He has restored my youthful love for His creation. Yeshua is His Name. He is calling to you, come to Me and I will give you rest and a peace that surpasses all understanding. He is the Ancient of Days and will give you living water and an abundant life.

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  29. Wow, Amazing!

    I feel ya…It’s scary to achieve your full potential for so many reasons. Yet, we spend our whole lives striving for scrapes of it. We complain when we don’t obtain in. It’s fear at its best!

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    1. That’s definitely an intriguing thought. I love the way you put it. Thank you so much for taking the time to read and share this here! Hope you have an incredible 2019! ❤

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    2. Thanks and you too. I’m sure most of us deserve a better year!

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  30. JK says:

    It’s so beautiful, the way you have with words! I stand here in awe! Its so elegant, thanks for inspiring. Have a wonderful year.

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    1. Thank you so much for the elaborate compliment. It really means a lot. Hope you have an incredible 2019 as well! ❤

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  31. J.J. Shaun says:

    Thank you for leading me here. 🙂 I love the allusion, it fit perfectly into my current experience. Clarity leads to understanding.

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    1. Glad you liked it! Thank you so much for taking the time to read and comment! ❤

      Like

  32. chris2041 says:

    You captured just how I felt on New Years Eve, made all the more poignant having been diagnosed with cancer late last year. This gave me a whole new perspective on New Year and your mix of anticipation, hope and fear summed it up beautifully.

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    1. That truly means a lot to me, Chris. I’m glad this piece could offer solace, however small. Hope you walk out of 2019 strong!<3

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  33. Hi thanks for following my blog. I thought I’d take a look and see what kind of stuff you do. You have a lovely, expressive way with words! Really beautifully sad piece.

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    1. Thank you, Bethan. That means a lot ❤

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  34. Nice one!
    Please, I would like you to visit and follow
    My blog as well… Thanks!

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  35. robernava says:

    I feel like that in the new year, you write deep metaphors. love this one: mourning…of… futures not realized.

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    1. Glad you liked it! Thank you so much for taking the time to read and comment! ❤

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    1. Thank you so much! That truly means a lot ❤

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  36. Beautiful and thoughtful

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  37. Belinda Norton says:

    Beautifully written.

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    1. Thank you, Belinda.

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  38. Jennifer Anne says:

    Beautifully written!

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    1. Thank you, Jennifer.

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  39. You are an excellent writer, Shreya. ❤

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  40. icarepo says:

    I hope you are human because you sound too heavenly and I mean it, like you had everything in your face saying our minds and feeling out thoughts.. omg

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  41. Ravishing prose more poetic than verses and concise verses more clearer than prose an enthralling mixture. The thoughts effectively but more important beautifully transferred even to this dunce.

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  42. I loved “Cynosure”. You spoke to me.

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    1. I’m glad it resonated. Thank you for taking the time to read and comment.

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  43. I particularly liked these lines:-
    “You sit by the tomb of dead time and weave your next identity, one thread looping into another. “

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    1. Thank you. I’m glad it resonated.

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  44. Thank you for sharing, it is very beautiful.

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