Vitesse

A litany, a promise, a prayer.

Run.

I run so fast, I will tear out of this sordid flesh, out of gilded skin and ivory bone.

I see myself: I am hollow, a pit of red.

I am the colour of blood, the colour of rage. The colour of flesh, the colour of shame.

I can see it: I am shackled, by these strands of vein. They coil around me, tighter, tighter, I cannot breathe.

I see the cage, clearer than ever, this prison of flesh.

I see this promise, I hear its oath.

Run, it whispers. If you run fast enough, you’ll break free.

And so, I do.


I run on fear, I run on fire.

I run for pain, the excruciating burn of desire. I burn for the exquisite absence of thought.

I run so fast, I leave behind my self, I will rust away until there is nothing left of me. Out of breath, out of life.

I want to lose myself, in the purest sense of the phrase, I want to forget, to be misplaced. I want to leave behind this life.

Bone to dust; blood can rust.

I run to death.


I see the cage, clearer than ever, this prison of red.

I hear these voices, I trust in their message.

Run, they whisper. If you run fast enough, you’ll break free.

I know I can.

I know I can.


Photo by Bryson Hammer on Unsplash

PS In May 2019, I will be moving to a new web address. I’m shifting to a personal domain and I’m so, so excited for you to see it! Buying my domain is giving me so much more freedom for new features, design, and I can’t wait for you to get started there.

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170 Comments Add yours

  1. The Warden says:

    Hello, Shreya! I’ve got to confess, when you first began dropped the Natalie Swift alias, I wasn’t sure if “Natalie” had invited someone else onto her platform – not due to any change in the material or its quality, but due to the abrupt name change. I guess I should’ve been paying better attention.

    Anyway, this piece isn’t so “beautiful” as some of your others, but it is certainly visceral, and I’ve often identified with the sentiment of wanting to cast away flesh itself, with its shortcomings and eccentricities. (Usually this happens when I’m disappointed in myself, listening to black metal, or both) And you captured that idea nicely here. “I burn for the exquisite absence of thought” is an interesting line, and I like that you used a physical verb – burn – and not a mental verb, like “I long for the exquisite absence…” Once again, good luck with your work!

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    1. Ahh I should have expected that. No problem at all. I didn’t feel like putting up an entire post about it, so abrupt it was. It’s been quite a while, hasn’t it? How’s 2019 treating you?
      I’m afraid you’ve caught me at somewhat of a raw moment right now. Though I’m always captivated by how beautiful language can be, it’s somewhat of a relief to cut it down to the bones once in a while.
      Thank you for your feedback. Good luck to you as well! ❤

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  2. Lora Tia says:

    Can we really though? I can’t seem to break free regardless of how fast I run…

    This was so powerful to read, thought provoking too. Now I’m left wondering🤔.

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    1. I’m glad it resonated with you, Lora. Thank you for taking the time to read and comment. ❤

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    1. Thank you. I’m glad it resonated.

      Like

  3. icarepo says:

    Truely I run for pain.. just kept me crying it’s a nice one dear can I repost?

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    1. I’m glad it resonated. Thank you. And of course; I would be honored. ❤

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  4. Chels says:

    This is so beautiful

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  5. Intense and – I believe – in the end, uplifting! Love the struggle in the images put to words, Shreya! 🙂

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    1. ps – glad I found ur Twitter page, have followed 🙂

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    2. Thank you so much, Felipe. That means a lot ❤️

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  6. I hear the emotions screaming out to find a path, but yet, so subtly. Very well written.

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    1. Thank you. That means a lot ❤

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  7. Inspired by your style of mixing prosaic poem with actual poem had me make a blog post of my own in your style. I’ve mentioned you my post. Don’t know how to link to your post or would have done that. Please visit that post of mine again. Here

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    1. I’ll definitely check it out. And I’m honored my work was an inspiration to you.

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  8. Successfully linked to your blog.

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  9. Does this style have any name? there must be similar styles do mention

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    1. I would say it’s a version of the prose-poem, which has been around for quite while…

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    2. I can’t find the vertical line before verses that you use. I intend to try more of such stuff. When I see new things like these I am like a kid seeing candy.

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    3. Haha are you talking about the divider? Or did I misunderstand you?

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  10. lawrenceez says:

    Very powerful writing.

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  11. mabelfrancis says:

    Your writing is so intense! Brilliant!

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  12. pranabaxom says:

    Brilliant. Such strong emotions.

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    1. pranabaxom says:

      I really mean it. I also do feel pain running through the verses.

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    2. That truly means a lot. I’m glad it resonated ❤

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  13. Such beautiful layout and eloquence!

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  14. kingdom says:

    This is really beautiful. You’re very good with words.
    This feels reminiscent of a bad panic attack I had last year. I remember feeling very stuck in my own head and body, and wanting so badly to be anywhere but in myself.
    Like I was in the middle of a storm, and there was absolutely no escape. I was just hopelessly pushing against my own thoughts.

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    1. That’s dreadful. I hope this piece could offer some consolation through empathy, if any.

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    2. kingdom says:

      It was dreadful, but I’m definitely doing better now.
      I find this piece oddly strengthening? I felt more powerful, despite feeling choked.
      So thank you. I did find solace, in a way. :3

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  15. soanuthatch says:

    Wow! I’m enjoying your work very much. To be redundant, you have such a powerful voice. I can feel the desperation to break free. The hope that you can if only… it’s very nice!!!

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    1. Thank you! I’m glad it resonated.

      Like

  16. ilonapulianauskaite says:

    Don’t know how long you are writing, but brilliant💃

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  17. minenerddiaries says:

    Fills me with positivity☺️

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    1. minenerddiaries says:

      Most Welcome 🙂

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  18. The very first line got me. ❤❤❤❤

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    1. I’m glad you enjoyed it!

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  19. Very intense, very nice, but very sad as well. Feels like you’re trying to outrun your shadow. Kind of impossible, maybe death is the only answer. Not sure if I understand it right, just thoughts. 🙂

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    1. I don’t believe there is any ‘right’ explanation to it. Words are just dust; it’s what you feel and what you know that matters.

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  20. Louis Atilano says:

    Beautiful

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    1. Thank you, Louis.

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  21. You’re an outstanding writer

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    1. Most welcome dear
      I’m biggest fan of your writings
      Writing like you is still a dream for me
      Queen of dark poems
      I want to learn so much from you

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    2. Thank you so much. This just made my day🖤

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